Wednesday, March 11, 2009

So, I'm Paranoid. So what?

Tonight at AWANA's, Jake and another child collided heads. Both were crying, both were holding their little heads. I looked at the other child's first. This was his second run in with another head tonight, so I was actually more worried about him. His forehead was red, but that was all, not really any swelling. So, I look over at Jake. He already had a huge, purple knot on his head that sunk in the middle. It looked like a volcano. I thought that I handled the situation pretty well. I jerked both of them up and raced down the hall to grab some ice pack. After we were there for a while and both of them had calmed down, I was still freaking out because of the way that Jake's lump was swelling. If it had just been a pop knot, I wouldn't have worried...well, not much, anyway. But with it sinking in the middle, I just couldn't really rest easy with it. One of the men that works with AWANA's asked me, "Do they not get a lot of bumps at your house?"'s the thing. They're boys. Of course they get a lot of bumps. It was the way the bump was. Plus, and I will freely admit it like I did tonight, I'm a paranoid mama. I haven't always been. At least, not the complete fruitcake that I am now. I was pretty nonchalant when Will was a baby. I put up baby gates at the top and the foot of the stairs. But when, at 18 months old, he started climbing the gates I took them down and didn't really worry about it. But, since Ethan died, I'm a basket case when it comes to the boys and sickness, fever or injury. I just am. Is it understandable? Sure. Do I need to get over it? Yeah, I think so. Jake was not very appreciative tonight that I wouldn't let him get up until a nurse looked at him. Oh, well. Something else to work on, right?


Tonya said...

I'm so glad that I'm not the only one who needs to work on this! I've been the same way with my girls since Grady died. I think we just don't assume anything anymore.... Hope you're doing well!

Anonymous said...

I think that is a normal Mommy reaction. That is your baby (and always will be)so you should do what you think is best. Chris thinks that I am crazy when I get upset over stuff like that. Men just don't understand. Have you heard from Andy? Love ya, Julie

Lynda said...

Why do people think they have the right to judge our parenting style? Everyone does things differently. I do whats right for me and my family no matter what anyone else thinks! I would have done the same thing in your situation!