Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Happy Birthday, Ethan

Ethan,

Today is your birthday. I have struggled desperately with how we should, or even if we should, celebrate it. I feel that it is important that your special day is recognized. It means a lot to your brothers and to Mommy and Daddy that it is. But how should we celebrate, how can I celebrate, when you are not here with me. I celebrate more than your birth; I celebrate YOU. The fact that you were; that you existed. That although I will never understand why God took you I can take joy in knowing he created you and he let me have you for a while. I miss you with everything that is me, with everything that is in me. You are our precious third boy, our baby. Or as your Aunt Andi would say, "Our precious darling angel child." Mommy and Daddy love you and we can't wait to hold you again one day. Happy Birthday, Baby Boy.

Love,
Mommy

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

May mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you. Jude 2

Aunt Martha

Gabbin' with Giff said...

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Anonymous said...

always praying for you. Miss you much!

Julie M.

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday to that sweet, round-cheeked, curly headed boy. I am so honored to have gotten to meet him, and I can't wait to get more snuggles when I get to see him again in heaven... although I'm sure I'll have to wait in a long, long line. : )

~Gin~